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Mr Smeg wanted to watch a Bond movie so we’re watching Goldfinger.

My Mum never let Bond movies play in our house. She couldn’t stand the sexism.

I can see her point. Funny movie but very much a product of its time.

Just got back from picking up bike from bicycle hospital, taking in Preston Market on the way. Which was heaving and throbbing with vast crowds of people. So much so that I think I will do my market shopping tomorrow early instead. Lunch will be local banh mi I think. And extra tiger rolls for scrambled eggs tomorrow morning.

Neighbours that I don’t know very well are having a massive blue out on the street.

I’m standing in the driveway with another neighbour (beers in hand) and we’re providing commentary.

The offending parties are splitting their rage between each other and us, and it’s fucking hilarious.

Putting on a wash on because I noticed a big drool mark on my silk pillow case.🫠rip. Is it normal to drool when sleeping as an adult

Something just feels a bit off in my relationship and I don’t know what.

Which leads to anxiety about anxiety. I just want peace (which is a way of turning the ‘struggle switch’ on trying to make the feeling go away, not helpful).

Trying to control my anxiety.

I thought I silenced my phone notifications but they kept rolling through and popping up and I fixed it yet I still check to see if more came in.

Anxiety can’t be fixed because I’m dealing with family and it’s my fault I’m in this position that I am now.

Trying not yo let it get to me but I don’t know if I’ll be able to just ignore it.