AKA how are you surviving it?
Mom and her partner are going to a reunion with some neighbours, get drunk and whatever and invited me but i won’t go. I know how those parties are and I hate being surrounded by alcoholic ignorant people and people I don’t know… My little bro (16 yrs old) goes out with his friends. My other bro that is 5 years younger than me (he’s 29 years old) Will pass the NYE with her fiance and her family in their families restaurant.
So I’ll stay in my room alone again. There’s no reason to go outside. The stupid fireworks won’t let me sleep anyways so I’ll play Xbox and watch some p*rn maybe. I know it can be seen as pathetic for some, but that’s my reality and I can’t do anything about it.
Sorry, friend. I was just trying to create a little subversion, but I know that doesn’t always help.
I do sympathize though. Being alone and lonely for so long DOES suck… Holiday’s are so superficial/commercial nowadays too and many of us just don’t have the motivation or energy to suffer through them.
I’m not really doing anything special either, if it makes you feel any better. I genuinely would rather be playing games and watch porn than the menial social get together I’m obliged to.
The alone part is for 2 decades already. The porn and gaming is 10 years