Then I must have been tripping balls, as I recall v10 was the last thing they were gonna release, the whole repo was archived too, maybe it was Ajay’s prefix being archived? I really don’t recall. Anyway thanks from stopping me from spreading misinformation!

Happa Birthdaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaay

I can rest peacefully now, also I thought that footprint was yours, I was like “Holy fucking shit?”

around compatibility patches for other mods very often

Yeah it almost seemed like every mod had compatibility with some 7 other mods. That’s how I discovered a lot of good mods.

I even have a little mod idea from 2012. I haven’t done it yet. Maybe I still will.

I was honestly shocked to see that LE still gets uploads, even though they are mostly texture mods. Some SE/AE mods do get ported to LE, but like you said, there isn’t much more for compatibility for all of these mods. You have to patch stuff yourself using XEdit, and… Oh boy!

texture compression playable at all during the summer months

I thought I was I crazy when I said that I shouldn’t play games in the summer. But a couple of screenshots I had showcased a much lower CPU temperature in the winter. So there I was in the winter, toes and fingies frozen, just playing Skyrim. Mostly just roaming and making my own stories and sub plots, I never did any kind of faction quest ever.

Skyrim and Minecraft

My first modding experience with Minecraft was with Forge and Optifine on version 1.12. Tbh it was a very bad experience partly because of my even weaker rig back then. But now I think the Minecraft ecosystem is better than ever, I have seen a huge shift to adopt open source licenses for mods (Although to be fair, when I was a kid I didn’t check for licenses lol). I always thought I couldn’t play the latest and greatest version because I have a weaker system, but Sodium and some other 20 mods turned the table! I’m talking about Fabric here, as it has a much lower memory footprint than Forge, albeit less mods :(

A man after my own heart. Also here’s how the game looked like

Tree Mesh Remover

Insignificant Object Remover

Those trees in the distance (LOD Trees) are hallucinations created by your dwindling sanity as you try to squeeze +2 fps. When you go near them they simply plop out of existence.

Also my game looked worse than this. Interestingly the Xbox360 version of the game not only looked better. but actually ran at a smooth 30 fps.

For any poor soul that wants to attempt what I did, first you must follow the official guide on the Skyrim Modding Wiki, then take a look at this A Helpful Guide To Increase Skyrim’s Performance and Stability - FPS and Optimization

Your biggest boost will probably be from reducing the resolution, and making sure that you are using dxvk or Gallium Nine, DO NOT USE WINED3D which is basically the default state of wine. Gallium Nine was so easy to install when Mesa 24 was compiled with it enabled, now Mesa 25 stopped compiling Gallium Nine so you have to compile Mesa 1.24.x yourself and enable Gallium Nine support. I tried but for the life of me it wouldn’t fucking compile.+

In the end, I modded Skyrim more than I played it.

The Winlator experience for me was crazy. I would try so god damn hard to get a game to run, then when it’s running at a stable framerate, I never play it again. Spent more time on “can I?” instead of “Should I?”

Sadly Winlator has ceased development or something? I heard something about the dev having school or taking a temporary break, I am not sure. Winlator is still up, thanks @MazonnaCara89@lemmy.ml for correcting me!

Context for my setup: I was running it under wine with an Intel i3 with iGPU. I didn’t take “no” as an answer, if I wanted to play Skyrim, I will play Skyrim. Since I can’t use dxvk, I had to use Gallium Nine. In the end Gallium Nine gave me the biggest boost, now interiors average about 40-45 fps, and exteriors are about 25-30. I was also crazy enough to want to play with some 150+ mods, so there’s no one to blame here but me.

complex ancient fading lore

It might as well be. Lots of mods got deleted, then there is the split between Legendary Edition, and whatever the newer two versions are, so now we have a shit ton of backports and forward ports of many mods. Skyrim modding was a nightmare, I can’t even imagine trying to mod say, Fallout: New Vegas.

Also shouldn’t you guys be due to a change? I have no idea how that cross found its place on your flags, but to me it seems that it needs to change to symbol progress and multiculturalism. Is changing flags that hard?

I think that the most recent flags came from revolutions or military uprisings.

Art styles slays.

Not with that attitude!

I don’t need sleep, I need answers. Please tell me, what are they eating!

Better colors than most country flags, smh.

Hell fucking yeah. When running Skyrim I had to play it on such a low resolution it looked like a PS1 game, I also removed trees, reduced mountain textures to 256x256px, and many other mods I put into a group called “Schizo Performance Mods.”

It seems that you have stumbled upon a person’s beer empire, you’d do well to watch yourself in its premises.

I first felt my stomach drop

I might just have that effect on people ;-)

If I had copious amounts of disposable income

I’d have to wait until I finish college. Which is why I said, that the only hope of my situation to change is to finish the next 4-6 years, somehow…

Not sure if this crossed your mind before but is crowdfunding for monies not possible?

It had never crossed my mind, plus I’m not the kind that likes to ask for help. Just posting this took a huge amount of courage, I had the whole post set up, then I posted it when I was sleep deprived, if I wasn’t, I would never, ever, ever post anything anywhere. For some fucking reason I am both shy in real life and the internet, so that’s why I tend to post when I am “sleep shitfaced.”

Is that some kind of bag? What a poor soul, no shoes, and no bag 😩. We may never know what happened.

my glasses were already smeared with sweat by the point I found these

Oof, that sounds terrible. At least you got a shot of these rare shoes, there’s something beautiful about things being left here and there, mostly unintentionally, and having nature devour them.

It truly does seem like only a miracle could lift me outta here, when my head is fogged and when I have little to no energy, I really can’t imagine a roadmap or a plan to get me out of here.

While I appreciate the poison sentiment, for me at least, there are so many variables that could go wrong. What if I throw up? What if someone rushes me to the hospital? Etc, etc. A failed suicide attempt here, is worse than a death sentence.

Hey for what its worth, I really hope you get better, sometimes random things do happen in life, for better, or for worse… Then they happen again, so you can re-roll quite a lot of times.

you won’t have to relive this day

Said so beautifully. This might just resonate with me.

But reading it you sound like one of the toughest people I’ve ever heard of Take heart in looking back and seeing how many miles you’ve already behind you.

This may sound like me tooting my horn, but many times I have felt like I was this cube of absolute steel that has somehow managed to endure through it all, but even steel can break yk? There’s also the fear that all of this will cause irreversible damage on my overall physical and mental health (which it already did, imagine feeling so nervous that it fucks up your nervous system?). I have always coiled and hissed when hearing things like “Look how far you have come”, but to put in the context that I don’t have to relive today’s serving of suffering is what I needed to hear.

Thank you! I wish you the best of things in, like, everything!