They have open coursework, lectures and more. I do understand it is not equal to going to Yale but for not being able to afford college. Yales free stuff is something I believe we all could argue is some of the most valuable experience beyond maybe Harvard’s stuff.

No from Yale which has much more nuance to it. At would mean I went to, from meaning from their course work.

Do you though? Since ever since the beginning talking to others about this many individuals instantly go to mental health or it’s impossible without actually trying to understand or even stepping back and helping me understand what the full processes will do. You say you already know but you aren’t my psychiatrist are you? And see this

“I don’t need to try and understand. I already know.”

This is exactly what I mean. If you won’t even try and understand an idea that stands as an idea that is radically different from what you are used to or believe. It is instantly mental health. See I have no issue discussing with people who believe it’s fake or not exactly right. Though those individuals are constructive rather than outright unable to think of ideas that are outside of their level of understanding or near it.

Yeah no. The answer you gave is specifically part of what the post is about. Your own subjective interpretation and experience into life makes it unable to see anything beyond what is comfortable to you as real. As seen. With your last message.

See because here’s the issue. When people say they believe there’s no superficial evidence (easily noticeable without scans) there is. Though no medical expert has done anything more than just questionnaires. If they would simply feel my upper ribs. They’d feel no separation leading to whole new Avenue. Beyond that the issue is. You are so quickly to dismiss it as mental health issues without actually trying to understand what is happening. So you are a prime example of what this post in tails.

And I have.

I guess the most important thing I want from a doctor. Is to listen to me. Even if they doubt it. I would like help understanding what may all happen. Maybe help finding out where to get scans to help science. Like I don’t know whether only the upper and middle portions of my ribs are fused or fully. Beyond that like today. I went today to see about hydration and they pushed me quickly out of the door. Though I drank 33 fl ounces of pedialtye in 2-3 days and each day 4-5 water bottles and still wasn’t hydrated enough to feel comfortable.

Very much so! Also I haven’t been on any substances for a long time.

No I don’t have a degree in medical but I have studied medical from Yale. I acknowledge that I am nowhere as knowledgeable as a doctor but if a doctor can’t cooperate and work with the patient why are they in that position. I’m not saying the things I bring up would be 100% correct. Though in the past I did this

Diagnosis hypothesis

Possible diagnosis 1#

Symptoms I know I have

Possible Diagnosis 2#

Symptoms I have

Possible Diagnosis as many as it takes

Symptoms I have

Then

My best guessed diagnosis

With symptoms making me consider

I look for them to help me work through these and see which are more likely than find the correct one if any are.

I wanted you to see this part, @Azzu@lemm.ee

Since in this instance. This is how I found out I had Bipolar and BPD. While it’s harder for medical specifically. It’s not impossible.

It’s that they don’t explain to me or even try and see if there’s any merit in it. And yeah as you said. There is a system that encourages them to quickly get rid of patients.

I wouldn’t mind going back to a doctor and see but I don’t want to waste my time. It’s like how many times are they just going to ask a basic questionnaire and then dismiss me without trying to find out anything.

Lastly. While I can see why it seems incredibly far fetched the idea i mentioned. I don’t see how it wouldn’t make sense. I mean I will say there’s a big possibility I could be wrong in a certain manor but it is how I learned to understand it. And it seemingly worked very well. Though no one seems to be able to explain why it would be wrong or even be able to get anywhere that far without just labeling it mental illness or being non constructive.

Thank you. You responded kindly. As for a group of individuals. I do have them. Though the biggest issue. Is no one has the knowledge to help me understand the induced biological processes that I am going through.

I mentioned you in another comment. Now can I ask why you assumed manifesting is the correct word. Since if you took time to read my post in the past. You’d understand it’s not manifesting rather and induced biological adaptation similar to evolution. I haven’t even done anything for it in over 8-10 months. And before that hadn’t been for years. Most of these changes are happening without my influence after I already started it.

I’d say it’s more, society has conditioned individuals to instantly assume this is mentally Ill and impossible but when someone actually connects dots that make sense beyond typical magic. It is extremely uncomfortable.

Edit:Just as always when someone mentions something that doesn’t match the story you are trying to put. You begin non constructive and outright dismissive and then when I respond and it doesn’t match what you like. You downvote and don’t even try to be constructive.

Well you’ve heard of E=Mc^2. The statement that allows for energy and matter to be interchangeable. Now let’s go to another topic. Have you heard. Magic is the manipulation of energy to alter your reality.

Now what happens when we connect both as one?

This is something I looked into to understand magic.

That’s one of them. The idea of even mentioning this. Makes them instantly assume I’m crazy even though my psychiatrist ruled delusions or psychosis out.

Another person you’ll see in here. Said I’m manifesting wings. Even though if they’ve actually read my post. They would understand that it’s not manifesting but just an induced adaption similar to evolution. Using E=MC^2 in magic. Which included rebuilding my back muscles and new bones in it, rebuilt spine, sternum, arms, kneecaps, fused ribs and extended. And much more.

They say there’s no obvious changes or any medical professional would jump at the chance to discover it. Though I’ve let my medical team know and without an exam on me they rule everything out. When all they had to do was feel for separation between my ribs. Then it opens up a completely new picture.

I’m hesitant to respond to any of these messages but I will to this one. And yes I fully understand what you mean in the first part. And I have looked into myself. Don’t extensive work beyond anything most people do. Though the main issue comes where my ideas are so beyond what most people can accept or think is true. Making me feel incredibly isolated and I believe you could understand. Eventually it’s better to just stop communicating online? I wouldn’t mind getting a therapist if I can even afford it.

I got to this point by the time. I went to see about a medical problem today but realize. They don’t even do physical exams or anything to see if anything I say has merit. They instead look and put a certain label on it without evaluating it. Then when I go to ask individuals online. It seems they can’t consider it. Can’t even interact even if skeptical. And most my post seem to get so much more hate than even skeptical interactions.

My idea of doctors is an equal partner. I can research things suggest things and they help cross those things out.

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