Hmmm, I really want to die
A lot of you need a Hug… And I am here to give it to all of ya!
RSD is annoying to have.
Tell me about it. I’m with my first ever partner, they’re absolutely amazing and I really don’t know how I’d be doing without them, and yet every single tiny little thing makes me feel like they’re gonna leave me even though I still believe them when they say they love me. I don’t know what’s wrong with my brain but I don’t like it, I just wanna be able to believe they love me without constantly worrying that I’m doing something wrong
Oh, we can pretty much trace the trauma that led us to be like this, but it’s still frustrating.
We can’t properly heal until we are away from those who caused it in the first place, as they keep retraumatising us, which is difficult when they also caused us trauma about work (though working also did that), and we’re anti-capitalist, anti-hierarchy and get PDA from people telling us to do things, so we are stuck.
But yeah, it’s gotten better 5 years into the relationship and with therapy, but despite being polyamorous and relationship anarchists we don’t envision us having any other partners soon as most people we don’t trust and we take a long time to want to even meet physically, or if we have met then do anything more intimate than just talking, or we suppose we don’t like doing intimate things online even for a long time either.
Still, RSD can appear randomly in certain situations, we do our best to deal with it, but we maybe need more intense therapy beyond just talk therapy, like ReParenting or EMDR.
thanks for the idea, will do :D
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