Switch the company to something that feels more meaningful, if you can.
I thought I had my dream job - being a research software engineer - but it turned out that there’s only funding collected by corrupt professors, nobody has any clue where they want to go, most projects die the moment some PhD student graduates or there is some opportunistic incentive to just dump it and do something else, nobody even wants you to write software for them because it means they have to change their workflows, and all that leadership cares above is not useful software, but that it looks good in reports and presentations to get more funding.
Just saying, one can be perfectly miserable even when working for the supposed “good side”. My motivation was at an all time low once I saw through all the bullshit and grew hopeless.
I quit that job after 3 years, and now I’m in a mid-size company with an interesting business domain, people care about my work, and I doing great. My team lead appreciates me, I get to actually do some stuff that’s suitable for my qualification and also what I enjoy.
I think with ADHD we can’t force ourselves to work in jobs that do not feel meaningful or intellectually stimulating. Other people are also suffering in bullshit jobs, but we literally cannot take it. But in the right environment we can thrive.
Ah, and “thanks” to whoever is responsible for the mess that is MSVC and Windows. I’m happy I can work on Linux 99% of the time (most teams are in Windows/ use Visual Studio), but we gotta support cross platform builds, and everything by Microsoft tends to be the odd, slow, half-broken special configuration, or imposes a limitation we have to work around. Because either it’s not standard compliant or just buggy.
I totally can imagine how you can burn out from working at Microsoft. Feels like this company alone is wasting millions of hours of work all around the world.
Switch the company to something that feels more meaningful, if you can.
I thought I had my dream job - being a research software engineer - but it turned out that there’s only funding collected by corrupt professors, nobody has any clue where they want to go, most projects die the moment some PhD student graduates or there is some opportunistic incentive to just dump it and do something else, nobody even wants you to write software for them because it means they have to change their workflows, and all that leadership cares above is not useful software, but that it looks good in reports and presentations to get more funding.
Just saying, one can be perfectly miserable even when working for the supposed “good side”. My motivation was at an all time low once I saw through all the bullshit and grew hopeless.
I quit that job after 3 years, and now I’m in a mid-size company with an interesting business domain, people care about my work, and I doing great. My team lead appreciates me, I get to actually do some stuff that’s suitable for my qualification and also what I enjoy.
I think with ADHD we can’t force ourselves to work in jobs that do not feel meaningful or intellectually stimulating. Other people are also suffering in bullshit jobs, but we literally cannot take it. But in the right environment we can thrive.
Ah, and “thanks” to whoever is responsible for the mess that is MSVC and Windows. I’m happy I can work on Linux 99% of the time (most teams are in Windows/ use Visual Studio), but we gotta support cross platform builds, and everything by Microsoft tends to be the odd, slow, half-broken special configuration, or imposes a limitation we have to work around. Because either it’s not standard compliant or just buggy.
I totally can imagine how you can burn out from working at Microsoft. Feels like this company alone is wasting millions of hours of work all around the world.