Honestly I can’t trust anyone it just feels like everyone views me as less than, that everything positive is backhanded and fake, and that all criticism is vague so I continue to be worthless stinky filthy stupid scum. Everyone finds everything about me incredibly funny. I am unlovable worthless scum.
Start with the token effort of not engaging in negative self-talk. Calling yourself scum is a self-fulfilling prophecy, a lie to let you feel self-righteous when you have been trained not to feel self-esteem. You must learn to spot that thought as you are having it and cut it off. It’s the only way out of the spiral. In case that’s too vague, whenever you are even thinking you are inferior, focus on literally anything else, as long as it occupies you enough to cut off the train of thought. Do math in your head. Focus on a 4 seconds in 6 seconds out breathing cycle. Balance a pen on your finger. Whatever. Just don’t follow the train into darkness.
I do, ye. But I got my own place now, and I’ve learned to stand up for myself
Honestly I can’t trust anyone it just feels like everyone views me as less than, that everything positive is backhanded and fake, and that all criticism is vague so I continue to be worthless stinky filthy stupid scum. Everyone finds everything about me incredibly funny. I am unlovable worthless scum.
Start with the token effort of not engaging in negative self-talk. Calling yourself scum is a self-fulfilling prophecy, a lie to let you feel self-righteous when you have been trained not to feel self-esteem. You must learn to spot that thought as you are having it and cut it off. It’s the only way out of the spiral. In case that’s too vague, whenever you are even thinking you are inferior, focus on literally anything else, as long as it occupies you enough to cut off the train of thought. Do math in your head. Focus on a 4 seconds in 6 seconds out breathing cycle. Balance a pen on your finger. Whatever. Just don’t follow the train into darkness.
Fuck the opinions of haters, especially from family. They’re not going to be helpful ever