I’m not good with masking my emotions sometimes, although I do try to process the things before I take any action.
My face and body language on the other hand can reflect what I’m going through at the moment.
Are you aware of any ways to control yourself under difficult situations (apart from things like meditation) ?
I used to have an “awkward smile” as in I couldn’t help but having an ear to ear shit eating grin whenever I was uncomfortable or upset. It would then perpetuate itself when I was conscious about it and uncomfortable at the fact that I was smiling at an inappropriate time. Took some practice at keeping a poker face initially. Once you can keep a straight face in any situation it’s much easier to fake an appearance. Still exhausting emotionally, faking it.