• Hyperreality
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    10 months ago

    You know, it’s not even that my arthritis is particularly painful. You get used to that.

    It’s that when I have a flare up, it’s this thing that is always there. Like someone constantly distracting you by poking you with a pencil.

    Why am I sad/angry today? Oh, that’s right my knees are hurting and/or didn’t sleep again due to nagging pain.

    It’s 7pm on a friday, I need to go sleep immediatley because I suddenly feel very very tired. Arthritis flare-up incoming. Go to bed within half an hour or else.

    It’s 4am. Why can’t I sleep? Oh, it’s my small toe which hurts for no reason.

    It’s 5am. Why am I awake? My toe doesn’t hurt that bad. Oh, it’s indigestion from the ibuprofen.

    I have pain in my shoulders. I must have exercised too heavily. Best take a break. Oh wait, I didn’t lift weights last week. I could have ignored that.

    My shoulders hurt, it must be arthritis. Oh wait, nope. It was the weights, you shouldn’t have ignored that, now you’ve injured yourself even more because you didn’t take a break.

    • themeatbridge
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      710 months ago

      Hi, are you me?

      You know what fucks with my head is having to explain to people why I can do something today that I couldn’t do yesterday. So sometimes I just don’t do things I know I can’t always do, because I don’t feel like having conversations about my medical history. Or maybe I could help you carry that furniture today, but because one time six months ago I was using a cane, you’re going to insist that I don’t have to help.