Xmas, new year, valentine’s… Seems like the festivities are there just to remind me how much I failed as an adult man incapable of getting company. It’s been over a decade since I’ve felt this way and nothing changes.
Alcohol and porn has lost its charm over the years.
Looks like you have the energy to make posts and comment on Lemmy. Use that energy to go on a walk or something for a change. For me, once I start being active, it leads to more energy, and more activities. Social media is exhausting in a whole other way. Trust me, you’ll gain the energy after you start walking.
That’s not even remotely the same.
Okay, I’ll try a different approach rather than giving advice. Your situation sounds awful, and it must be really hard for you. Reach out if you need, we’re there for you in spirit.
I wish I could articulate anything more than to say things can (and will) change and the future will be different.