I always say yes, so most of the things I have and am are mostly coincidental. Like, I’ve never gotten a job through a formal application procedure. They’ve all been through “networking”, but without any actual effort.

I’m not complaining, my life is great, but I sometimes feel like I’m being lived, instead of living my own life. I’m sure that’s gonna come back at me during my midlife crisis, but I’m not there yet.

Right now I am thinking about my career and laying out an actual plan for once and it feels dirty, but also it feels like the right thing to do.